I found myself in quite a nostalgic mood over the weekend.
I guess it’s a spill over effect from my 3rd Wedding Anniversary Celebrations two (2) weeks before.
Since then I’ve been taking regular trips in my mind to “Love Lane.” Remembering how my husband and I met, places we went, fun times we had and even the potholes we encountered along the journey.
There was another road however that I travelled on for many years before meeting Al (my husband). It was a long and winding road, filled with sharp curves, deep corners and dangerous precipices.
It was on that long stretch of road that I prayed, fasted and bawled before God for 7 1/2 years for a husband!
There were days when I was an emotional wreck – especially after relationships ended, relationships that I had been convinced was with “Mr. Right”, but instead went totally wrong.
On those days I wanted to take another route because the one I was on was too hard. How would my heart look if I continued on that stretch of road?!
In my eyes it had already taken too much battering.
Yet there were days when I didn’t even remember the lonely road I was on. I was just trotting along merrily, focussed on God and trusting Him to see me through to the end. However those days were few and far between.
There were times I truly thought God had forgotten His promise to me to give me a husband that would love me the way He did. The time just went by and nothing happened!
By year 6 I was at my wits end, “I must have heard wrong God! After all I thought those two relationships were in line with your will but they failed miserably!”
My life was like a roller coaster.
I constantly fought depression and for a while my faith wavered. By year seven however, I had a change of heart. Of course I still wanted a husband, but I shifted my focus and changed my posture.
I stopped focussing on when God was going to honour His promise and instead focussed on what He wanted me to do while I waited. Yes, there were still some extremely lonely times but with God’s help I made it!
It was then that I experienced God’s peace concerning my desire for a husband.
Strange enough it was a few months later that I reconnected with Al. We had been friends years before, but over the years we had lost communication. However thanks to a timely meeting on a very packed bus and to good old Yahoo messenger the friendship was renewed – in God’s time.
Looking back I realize that God could have given me the gift of a husband years before – I knew Al even before the 7 ½ years of my seeking God for a husband. However I wouldn’t have been ready for marriage then – and neither was he.
Receiving a gift before that gift can truly be used in the way it was designed by its maker will cause it not to fulfill its true purpose.
Do you notice that toys normally recommend the age of the child that should use the toy/ game? In so doing the child will be able to benefit from the use of the toy/ game based on their physical development. Likewise God gives His children gifts when we are at the spiritual stage of development to appreciate and to benefit from the value the gift holds.
Today your desire may not be for a husband, but it may be a new job, or a house, maybe a new vehicle, or is it a new ministry or gifting?
Is it a child?
Whatever it is, don’t lose hope.
It may seem impossible or so far fetched at this moment but can I remind you that as long as God has promised you that gift, then your gift is already there, waiting on God’s perfect timing to release that gift to you. The waiting may be hard but what God wants to achieve in you while you wait, will make the wait worth it!
“For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward [man] is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding [and] eternal weight of glory; while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen [are] temporal; but the things which are not seen [are] eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18.
Those years of waiting developed patience, perseverance, self-control, gentleness, faithfulness, peace, joy, and a love for myself and others that has made me a better person today – and a better gift to my husband!
Your gift awaits you… let God prepare you for it!
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