That time in my life when I could not sleep

Recently I went to the University of the West Indies to pay for a transcript.

While standing at the counter at the Examinations Section I saw the ‘miracle pill’ that had assisted me to get over the anxiety and mental torment that I experienced some years ago.

There it was, printed on white letter sized paper for all who approached the counter to see.

It was Isaiah 26:3

‘You keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.’ NIV

I saw it and remembered that time in my life when I could not sleep.

My nights were spent tossing and turning in bed.

I had a train of thoughts colliding in my head and I did not know how to slow them down or make them stop. I would wake up in the mornings feeling exhausted, sometimes catching naps in the bus or at work.

I marvel at the contrast today.

These days when I get home I greet my bed with deep romantic longing. Sometimes after a long day in office or an evening spent recording and editing for my radio programme, I dive in my bed and within minutes I am off to la la land. Zzzzzzzz.

Nothing really bothers me anymore and I thank God because it was not always like that.

It was out of desperation that I went searching for Bible verses that spoke about peace and ended up finding the ‘miracle pill’ in Isaiah.

I could have sought out some other antidote but I sensed that what was happening was spiritual and I needed something that could help with that.

What helped me was – The Word.

The first night that I set to put it to use, all the thoughts confronted me. They latched on like a battalion of soldiers coming against a city that they knew was defenseless. Thoughts about things that happened in the past, thoughts about things that were presently happening and thoughts about the future.

FEARS!

WORRIES!

I twisted and turned as the trail of thoughts continued and then I began to repeat the Bible verse, ‘You keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.’ NIV

I realized right then that my mind was not on God. It was on everything except what His Word was telling me. It was on everything except the joy and peace that He promised me and with all this I recognized that I was not trusting Him.

I realized too that there was a formula to get His peace.

Thoughts of God + Trusting God = PEACE

I personalized the verse for full effect, ‘You will keep ME in perfect peace, if I keep my mind on YOU’.

It was like a war inside as I struggled to reject the thoughts that had occupied my mind for so long and had found a home there.

In the silence of night, I repeated, ‘I WILL KEEP MY MIND ON YOU. I WILL KEEP MY MIND ON YOU LORD.’

I also incorporated other verses that I found and loved like, ‘He gives His beloved sleep…’ and ‘I will trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding.’

And just like that, while repeating all those words, night after night, my thoughts began to change and sleep came sweetly.

My best friends know to think twice when they invite me out at nights because they know I am serious about my 9pm bedtime. At 9pm my bed calls out lovingly and I rarely want to resist its charm.

There are so many things that seek to rob us of our peace. Mine manifested in restless nights but yours could be manifesting in other ways. Perhaps you find yourself being unable to function effectively on your job or in a relationship or at home. Perhaps you are having the very same issue with sleeping.

Whatever it is, know that there are words and promises in the Bible that you can prescribe for any situation that will help you to overcome.

Be blessed.

[About the Author: Sandie Heron lives in Saint Catherine, Jamaica with her Sister Roxanne and Dog Jackie. She enjoys writing and Video Production and desires to walk in purpose and fulfill her divine destiny.]

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